Dididing is missing

Please find my family's new maid, Diding. She has been missing since this morning when she offered to take the other maid home to get a cab.We last heard of her asking for directions in our family bakeshop and now she's nowhere to be found. Please alert me by commenting on this post, if you find her or have any clues of her whereabouts--or if you find this post weird and mind boggling. Please help finding, i mean find, our beloved new maid diding, cause she's missing.

Diding, wherever you are, we are here at home. I hope you know our address--or at least our family name.

sing a long a look

So me and my college friends were out doing karaoke, when one of the TV displays on the walls show Leona Lewis and the other TV shows Jordin Sparks.
Then, my friend taps me on the back and says, "You know, you kinda look like Leona and Jordin."
I say, "You sure? Cause they're all gorgeous and what not."
"Yeah Definitely," he says. "You can be their twin and you got a good voice too right. You could be like a star."
Then, I ignore him go back to singing, cause I know I won't be a star like Leona and Jordin, cause they got such a high voice range and I can never top that. Plus, they're girls...and I'm a guy. :P

My Dream Agent

Getting back from work and writing a two page scene from my novel, I come home in the comforts of my room and trusted elite computer and venture on the watery waves of the web and surf its seas. As always, I proceed with looking at my blog and checking the blogs that I follow. Then I come across Ms. Nelson's blog, which frankly I'm too tired to link. If you must read their entries find them at the right side of my tools section.

Now, getting back to my post. I just read at Ms. Nelson's blog of how she stands tall and proud of being an agent and I humbly admire her for that. Thus, reading that entry and all of the other entries I read at her blog, makes me want her as my agent soooooooooo BAD! Really really damn bad. But I step back and reduce my hopes and expectancies of having her. For when I query her, she may possibly turn me down. And not all authors get their most dreamed agent at the first try. Let me tell you why I love her so. It's because she stands as an agent that protects authors which you rarely find in an agent. Most agents these days focus on the career part of their clients, selling more manuscripts, getting more clients, harboring the barrier between aspiring new authors and publishers and the list goes on... Well, one thing is for sure, she's not like that--at least that's what I have concluded so far from her posts. Though at first, I was hesitant with her approach, saying she might not be the right agent for me. But after reading post after post, I realized an agent isn't supposed to just represent what genre you write. An agent is supposed to be your guard, your watcher and your ally in the literary world. I do hope she's the one for me though, realizing all of this. But maybe there is a probable chance that she may not and that's okay with me. But if its at all possible I'd really wish she'd ask for my full and offer representation when I query. That's why I'm holding out so patiently from querying her until I really know that I got a red hot chance of making her say yes to me.

that's all :)

we hope, we break, we learn, we grow, then we hope again

okay, for the most part my post maybe a little bit not related to the title. so why is it a title? I don't know. I just like the ring to it cause I was advising my friend on a heartache and I just came up with that.

Moving on...

I hit a car this afternoon. Nothing big, just made a scratch on him and on my car. IT sucks. There was this guy who came out at nowhere and started trafficking for me cause I was in a Uturn slot. Then he was asking for money for helping me. I was like what? Then boom. I forgot to stop. Because another guy was telling me to go and the freaking car just zoomed in my front. Well they were nice. I had to pay them 1k in peso, not in dollars. So I guess everythings fixed, provided I had to give my number and we had to swap car plate numbers and i had to take a photo of the damage. Well, eff that. My dad was like, you got your car hit? Again? Lol. Well thats life. Sorry my Lancer baby. You have to go get a new paint job, again. Crazy.

And you know where I went that afternoon? to the freaking postal office to get a freaking SASE or in this case, IRC, that costs like 115 pesos. In dollars thats about 2.50. That's still way too high for a freaking postage stamp. Then my snail mail for one agent cost around 315~6.50. Now I spent a lot of money this day when i was supposed to be saving. Oh deary my. Now I bought 10 IRC's, prepping my query letters again to travel in USA. OH dear..

querying update...the patience game

It has been not more than two weeks and I am growing impatient while I wait for my great agent (who seems to be still unknown) to reply to my query letters and ask for sample chapters. Often in this industry, agents asking for samples come by so rare and asking for manuscripts even scarcer. I've revamped my query from a very detailed almost synopsis like to a mushed down teaser with a voice to a concise less than 150 word voice-full letter. Well I hope my voice does come around on one of the agents, I've emailed. Because I am so racking my brains out and trying yoga classes just to maintain patience. And true enough, I can't seem to divert my attention elsewhere. Although I do have to learn how to make flash websites for my restaurant's website cause its still in plain HTML. I just can't move without a response. Honestly, I think if I just grabbed my agent already, I can really just sit back and focus on the other subjects at hand and what I really like doing.

Reading a ton of blogs is certainly or is unlikely making me for forget my manuscript waiting inside my hard drive. Blah!

querying update

Just sent a batch of queries to agents who have a field in multi culture and YA but not totally into fantasy. My friend said I should at least query them since my agent lists are running thin.
I've sent out a new fresh query, although I don't know if its stellar or not. But at least, I've given my best shot after being critiqued in AQuery.com and reading some blogs from the Query Shark. Of course I've even enlisted the aid of my sister, who is a reader and likes to see the real in things. Anyways, I've come up with a query which I think should at least be given an attention to.

bye for now :)

Rejection again...?

This is the time where all writers have their fingers crossed and praying at the altars asking God to give us a hand up. Yes, this is indeed the time. I'm salivating on the moments that pass by—when all of my dreams are a heartbeat away—or in this case a query away.

I've fixed my stellar query, wrapped it up, customized it to best fit the agent prospect. But, after sending out a batch of 11 queries, it seems like my dream may still be far from being realized. I have gotten three declined responses. First, the response was no since the agency does not handle YA novels anymore. I understand that since it's a company policy. So in short, I wouldn't want them representing me if they really are not representing my work. It's common knowledge. I guess they have a good enough excuse. Secondly, I've sent out a query letter to a maybe agent candidate. Her lineups doesn't include full blown fantasy and dark fantasy. She's more of a laid back fantasy reader with a little bit of everything. Plus she read the synopsis and sample chapters. I think it wasn't really her novel to pick up at the store. I guess that's okay too. But now, I was sent a reject letter by an agency who specializes in YA, fantasy and science fiction. The all three genres that is what I'm all about. To add to that, the agent specifically loves multicultural books which is what my book is. And to add fuel to the fire, they based it on my query only. They didn't even ask for sample chapters. Alas, life being unfair strikes again. I would have kindly understood a declination if it had been on a good standpoint. Not a standpoint that is based on one paragraph that people think the story itself is not good enough to read. I do hope when I find that agent, he gets me for what the book is all about and not because of the query or any other tools the literary world has belittled us into using.

Every rejection is indeed hard to take, but when the rejection is on a really low level of decision making; you question yourself; you question your integrity as a writer; you question your work and its greatness; you question your capability. I do hope the next agent that rejects does in fact reject me because of the fact that he wasn't passionate about my work, not because he just didn't get my query.

And lastly...the last agency that politely declined—wasn't even the agent herself. It was her assistant. So where does that level me? I remember this time where I went in a club or I didn't get into a club because the bouncer told me I didn't dress appropriately. But when in fact, what I was wearing was the fashion for summer and it was the "in" thing in style but because the bouncer didn't know that and had no idea about it, I guess I was just declined. And like now, I didn't even had the fighting chance.